So, for two months, I didn't say anything about it to anyone but I kept remembering the experience I had in church and with my grieving mother heart didn't know what to make of it. Then, in August, I felt like I was constantly thinking of it. You know how when you get a prompting from the spirit and you don't act on it, it kind of just goes away. Well this kept coming and coming and it really left me kind of confused. I got to the point where I started asking Heavenly Father to please bless me to know it I was supposed to act on these feelings. Well.....Just before school started, I had the kids in swimming lessons and on their first day, I was sitting poolside watching them when a woman with 5 little black kids came in. I could not stop myself from looking at them and finally approached her and in hopes that I didn't offend her, I asked her if these were her children.(She was white) She said they were and started tellimg me how each one of them came into her family. Long story short, I told her that I was starting to be very interested in adopting an African American baby, and she got all excited and told me that she actually teaches a class on adoption and all the ins and outs of the process. I couldn't believe it. It seemed like it was a direct answer to my prayers. I scheduled a time to attend her class and went home to tell Jeff. He was not thrilled with the idea. He didn't want to go to a class, it seemed like a giant waste of time to him since we weren't going to adopt. I did go. She tought a very informatinve class about all the different ways you could go about adopting domestic, international, special needs, infants, older children, etc... But more than that, the spirit was so strong as I watched videos of transracial adoptive families. When I left the class I felt sure that the answer to my questions about my experience in church was yes, yes, yes, I was supposed to act on it. Now....how to let Jeff know........