Emma's story part 1

Ok, so this is such a long and amazing story that due to my lack of time at the moment, I am going to write about it in parts.
I don't know how many of our experiences I should share due to the spiritual nature of them but I'll play it by ear...
Those of you who have read my blog know that on March 29, 2008, baby Isaac was born and died leaving a giant hole in our hearts and empty arms. The miracle of it is how the Spirit fills up that hole and helps me go on. In June, I was sitting in Sacrament meeting on fast sunday and there was a lull and I kind of tuned out for a bit. Then all of the sudden as clear as day, I saw two little black babies in my mind. I can't really explain how I SAW them without seeing them with my eyes. But, it made a shocking impression on me and I turned to Jeff and with a look up disbelief told him to remind me to tell him what had just happened to me after the meeting. So when we got to the car, I told him that I think we have two little black babies waiting to come to our family. His reaction was something like, Uh.....no. I didn't even know what MY reaction to this experience was so I just let it go and didn't really talk about it again. I mean, Isaac had just died like two months before. And I was aware that the grieving process takes all kinds of forms and wanting to adopt is one of them. I came to somewhat of a decision to wait and see if this was some out of the ordinary grief thing. To be continued.....

Introducing....

EMMA MAE WILLIAMS!!!! This is Rachels sister doing the posting... she is tied up at the moment but she wanted to get some pictures up of our sweet Emma! She is so beautiful and such a blessing! We Lover her to peices! More pictures will be coming....

I don't believe it!!!

You are not going to believe this! I can hardly believe this! Jeff and I are leaving for the hospital any minute now to be there for the birth of our baby girl Emma Mae Williams! Of course we still have 24 hours after the birth to see if the Birth Mother signs the papers. But we are very hopeful. Oh my goodness!!! This is surreal!

worst blogger ever

I am the worst blogger ever! It's just that everyone elses life seems to be more interesting than mine. But this is for my pour cousins who never get to see me and complained that they need to know about what's going on in my life, boring as it is. This is for you- you know who you are.
We had a wonderful Christmas. We managed to have some spiritual activities that really made us think about the true meaning of Christmas. At the ages my kids are now, it's fun to see them have so much fun. Of course, that's fun at any age right? One of the highlights for me was my little singing groups concert. They did so good and I was so proud of them! I have discovered that I really love teaching music. So, as long as I have kids who want to sing, I'll keep doing it! More later....

update

Who knew that adoption would be such an emotional roller coaster! But I love Christmas time so that makes it all right. On a light note, we have mice in our attic this year which gives us germaphobes some stress but I can't help laugh because I keep imagining them having this party up there. I think I'm reading too many cutsey Christmas books.

New Hearts Day

Tomorrow is a really special day for our family. It's actually a holiday we celebrate called New Hearts Day. Five years ago today, a really special little 3 month old baby girl went back to her Heavenly Father and her amazing family decided to donate her organs. Our little Dallin was on deaths door when we received the news that there was a heart that was a good enough match to try the transplant. First there was Joy and rejoicing. Then there was sorrow for the little one who died. Then there was fear that Dal wouldn't make it through the surgery. Well, he made it through and is doing well, and there hasn't been a day when we haven't prayed for our sweet donor family. I have actually felt her near at special moments over the past years.
So, tomorrow we celebrate Dallin's new heart, a new chance at life. And we also have activities that make us think about how WE can have new hearts. In the scriptures we read of having a change of heart, isn't that a new heart? We will be setting goals and changing our hearts. Celebrate with us!

singing group

Hey, to all of you who have had children in my singing group for the past few Christmas seasons, I wanted to let you know that I am starting up again on Friday, September 19th. If they don't make it to the first lesson, it's ok. I havn't been on the ball enough this year, but I do have some really fun pre recorded music this year. I am also really excited to have 2 groups for younger and older kids. Please tell everyone you know about it and call me to let me know if you're in this year. Thankyou so much!