I'm so stupid

What in the world am I doing up this late? Will someone call and wake me up for church tomorrow? Angie? Thanks to the fam for providing me with some crafty moments today. love ya!

A new thing

Ok, so I had a ubrilliant idea today, that I want to do a Fabulous Friend Friday on my blog. Doesn't that sound fun? I can talk about some of the totally awesome people that I know and am privledged to call friends. The only catch is that if I feature you as a friend and you actually don't want to be my friend, well now, that puts me in a pretty embarrasing situation, doesn't it? Well, it that is the case, please feel free to comment and let me know. Humiliation is my speacialty it seems. How should I do it? Should I put names in a jar and draw them out? Or maybe whoever comes to mind that week? HMMMmmmmm...

craziness

Ok. so, yes I have not been blogging. Life is crazy. I have started a new job working for the adoption agency that we got Emma through. It is really rewarding but there is deffinately a lot to learn. May is crazy with kids. It's as bad as December! Does anyone share this sentiment?
I keep hoping that the summer will slow down life for a little while so I can enjoy it a little better. Does that ever happen? This week at my house there will be dancing, puking, changing diapers, bottle feedings, baseball games, work days, lot's of driving, more dancing, cleaning- but never enough, a 6 year old boy birthday, oh, and we get to be on a live interview on the Primary Childrens KSL telethon on Saturday at like 8:00. It should be a full and fun week. Now to concentrate on the enjoying it part.

Life goes on

Sunday was Isaac's birthday and of course, the day he died. I was hard. I miss him. I miss what he would have been on his first birthday. It was hard to stop thinking about it, but having 3 other kids sure helps fill up your time and your mind so you can't dwell on it. Isn't it amazing how even when your life is filled with sorrow and pain and you feel like you aren't going to make it, and especially at those times, Father in Heaven blesses you beyond your comprehension. For me this year has been filled with miracles and belssings. Namely, Emma, continued good health for Dallin, Syd's sweet baptism last week. Is there no end to blessings?

Sleep

Emma slept 8 hours last night and 7 the night before. Am I the luckiest mommy right now?

Oh My Goodness!!!

Check out the magic that happens when you get Emma, Angie, and her camera together. I can hardly stop looking at these precious pictures!!!

Emma's Story part 2

So, for two months, I didn't say anything about it to anyone but I kept remembering the experience I had in church and with my grieving mother heart didn't know what to make of it. Then, in August, I felt like I was constantly thinking of it. You know how when you get a prompting from the spirit and you don't act on it, it kind of just goes away. Well this kept coming and coming and it really left me kind of confused. I got to the point where I started asking Heavenly Father to please bless me to know it I was supposed to act on these feelings. Well.....Just before school started, I had the kids in swimming lessons and on their first day, I was sitting poolside watching them when a woman with 5 little black kids came in. I could not stop myself from looking at them and finally approached her and in hopes that I didn't offend her, I asked her if these were her children.(She was white) She said they were and started tellimg me how each one of them came into her family. Long story short, I told her that I was starting to be very interested in adopting an African American baby, and she got all excited and told me that she actually teaches a class on adoption and all the ins and outs of the process. I couldn't believe it. It seemed like it was a direct answer to my prayers. I scheduled a time to attend her class and went home to tell Jeff. He was not thrilled with the idea. He didn't want to go to a class, it seemed like a giant waste of time to him since we weren't going to adopt. I did go. She tought a very informatinve class about all the different ways you could go about adopting domestic, international, special needs, infants, older children, etc... But more than that, the spirit was so strong as I watched videos of transracial adoptive families. When I left the class I felt sure that the answer to my questions about my experience in church was yes, yes, yes, I was supposed to act on it. Now....how to let Jeff know........